It’s a new day.
As predicted, I woke up this morning in much better spirits. Last night, I found myself in a place where I didn’t want cheering up, but I did, and amidst the confusion I decided to reach out. I spent a little over an hour with my good friends Leah and Darci, having a beer and just talking. I came back home tired and vented; I awoke this morning with a smile.
Though I had no energy; I didn’t run today. I only went once this week. Yipe.
When I’m feeling good, it’s all smiles. I launched one of my streaming electronic music channels, turned it up, piped it through the kitchen, and danced about. I fixed tea and a quick breakfast. I took a shower. I started my chores. I’ve been interacting with people all morning and it feels great. Ever since I came home from Dragon*Con, I feel like I’ve been waking up. Getting back to where I once belonged. Bumps along the road are still expected, but I tell you they are so much fewer and far between. Even my nightmares have reduced in quantity.
I write when moved. The strongest emotions I’ve felt overall in the last year have been grief and sadness; I need an outlet for that emotion and writing has been my primary tool for that. Things right now are terrific. I write, but it’s not public consumption writing. It’s been wonderful to be full of emotion on the other side of the spectrum. An unexpected pleasure, to be sure.
Life is good!