Support

It's difficult for me to accept help. When Dad died, I had an outpouring of sympathy and offers for assistance, but I don't recall taking anyone up on it. I remember a few phone calls, people asking how I was doing. Fine. I'm always fine. In the quiet moments of the night, when I let … Continue reading Support →

Heroes

Like many kids, I grew up thinking my parents knew it all. Any question I had could be answered. Any problem I had could be solved. No matter what was going on, I knew I could turn to them for support and assistance. And like many kids, I remember the moment when that curtain fell.I … Continue reading Heroes →

Routine

I never quite understood the Auld Lang Syne traditional song. May old acquaintances be forgot? No. I thrive on my interactions with people. If I shed the people from my life I would be a miserable person. I rather think it should be 'may old acquaintances be remembered' as people tend to forget others in … Continue reading Routine →

So This is Christmas

I didn't have any Christmas Eve plans this year, so when one of my fellow managers at work asked if I could close for him (working 4-1 instead of my normal 2-11) I said it would be no problem. I put on a festive red shirt (a vest, too, to showcase my new Doctor Who … Continue reading So This is Christmas →

Things Remembered

It's crazy, the things we remember. There was a minor water leak at the office a few days ago. I used to have a water cooler next to my desk that had been scheduled for removal months ago, but they just now got around to it. It was hooked up to the water line and … Continue reading Things Remembered →

Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving came and went without too much fanfare. At least, that's how it was on the surface. I went to Mom's on the day of for dinner. Last year, I took care of Thanksgiving dinner at my tiny efficiency apartment and had Mom and Tyler over. Dad never was big on holidays. Since Mom's oven … Continue reading Thanksgiving →

Thirty Years of Thanks

This year I celebrate my thirtieth Thanksgiving. I thought it appropriate to take a trip in the way-back machine and call out thirty specific things, from recent history and the distant past, to be thankful for on this holiday.I am thankful for the doctors, nurses, and prayers that kept my heart beating on April 7, … Continue reading Thirty Years of Thanks →

The Value of Friendship

I was driving to get lunch tonight and a Beatles song shuffled on my iPod that I hadn't heard before. Actually, that's not true; last year, my best friends Nikki and Brad bought me The Beatles Stereo Box Set. When I got all that music loaded onto my computer, I listened through the entire Beatles … Continue reading The Value of Friendship →

As Of Late

It's been a while since I've written. I have felt the dull tendrils of grief slowly rising and wrapping around me, preparing me for an inevitable night of catharsis. Until then, it seems little things set me off and put me into sad type moods. It hasn't been anything overwhelming, just slight tugs at my … Continue reading As Of Late →

Still

It's been eight months and 25 days. It's not like this is new.Why is it when I tucked myself into bed tonight, expecting sleep and having not much else on my mind, that my thoughts turn to my father, and before I know it I'm crying out to him, wishing he were here.I haven't cried … Continue reading Still →