I have an odd work schedule. I'm off on Thursdays and Fridays and work from 2:00 PM to 11:00 PM on the other days of the week. I measure my weeks on this schedule; the weeks start on Saturday and end on Friday. It's interesting to look at that very conventional system and see how … Continue reading Measuring Time
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Confusion
Historically, I do not have pleasant dreams. Before I met Indi, I often didn’t remember them; maybe one or two a month. They were always a jumbled mess or a nightmare. When we started sharing the same bed, I started remembering my dreams nightly. Still a mixture of confused/bad dreams, but I remembered them regularly. … Continue reading Confusion
Mother’s Day
Some of you have the pleasure of knowing my mother. She comes out to Baron von Swagger shows and hangs out at my place sometimes. She's a cool lady and has been as long as I've been around. She's been doing this job for thirty years; twenty-six of those years have been double time. I … Continue reading Mother’s Day
To my Father
Hey Dad!Been thinking about you a lot today, so I figured I'd write to you and let you know how my day is going. I had to get up early (for me, anyway) and drive to Pawhuska today. I was nervous, because I had to appear before a judge and possibly testify. I remember you … Continue reading To my Father
Eve
Tomorrow morning, I drive to Pawhuska and appear before a judge. Dad's estate gets finalized, and the legal side of my father's passing will be completed. All his bills will be paid, and I will be free to move on from the paperwork, signatures, haggling with creditors, and stresses of fairly splitting what's left between … Continue reading Eve
Thirty Years
April 7th, 1981. The Soviet Union was the big scare in the newspapers. Ronald Reagan was still in the hospital from his assassination attempt. "Rapture" by Blondie was #1 on the radio. The Tulsa World spoke about a new downtown renovation project for the Brady district. At 11:45 AM, I was born. I was only … Continue reading Thirty Years
Debt
Tomorrow is April. It's my 30th birthday month. I'm not overly concerned with thirty years; just another year, really. I am happy at my job. I love my family. I have many wonderful friends. I love the house I live in. So much has gone my way in the last year, though as anyone is … Continue reading Debt
Baby Steps
I've gone to two grief counselor sessions and I think I'm done.I got out of them what I wanted. I talked about Dad, I talked about my marriage, and was told I'm healing, moving along at a good pace and that I'm reacting normally. I'll have good days and bad days, but otherwise I check … Continue reading Baby Steps
Possession
"Nice car!"I have lost count of the amount of times someone on the street has looked at Dad's Mustang and make some kind of positive remark about it. It's six years old but it still turns heads. I always respond with a thank you and often tag a, "It was my father's" which gets no … Continue reading Possession
Restart
Time is funny.As I've mentioned before, there are moments when it feels like Dad's been gone a really long time and there are moments where I feel like I just got the phone call. It's changed a bit. Instead of fluctuating to where I feel like I just got the news, it's more of a … Continue reading Restart







