Have you ever felt you know something about somebody, but later find out that you didn't know the true depth of knowledge that you thought you did? Dad was really good at hiding things. If he didn't want you to know something, he would really pull out all the stops to keep things under control, … Continue reading Hidden
Timing
It's strange how I can have the exact same thought or say the exact same words and get entirely different reactions. For example: I have a picture on my desk at work of my family. Mom, Dad, Tyler, and I at Grandma's funeral service this past December. I'll look over at it occasionally, and sometimes … Continue reading Timing
Stuck
I've spent the last several days stuck in my apartment. This horrible blizzard has cut me off from the rest of the world, it seems.My apartment is behind a house in a residential area in the middle of Tulsa. Typically, I park on the street, take a sidewalk around the back of a small house, … Continue reading Stuck
Moved
Today was the last 'big' step in the aftermath of my father's untimely demise. It was moving day.Thanks to my night schedule at work, early mornings are once again a struggle for my brain to acknowledge. And, yes, 7 am is early. Thankfully, I got up with enough time to fix myself a cup of … Continue reading Moved
Speech
Thank you all so very much for coming. As I’ve talked to some of you this past week, I’ve come to realize that everyone thought as highly of my father as I did. I love my Dad very much, and I know he loved me. I was proud of the things he did in his … Continue reading Speech
Today
Can't sleep.In about nine hours, I drive out of town and to the town where my father was raised. He helped at his father's grocery store. He graduated high school. He raced cars at the Pawhuska Municipal Airport. He moved back to care for his ailing mother. Tomorrow, he completes his journey and we all … Continue reading Today
My 2011 Starts Friday
2010 was a hell of a year. In February, I returned home from my travels abroad as a better refined and defined version of myself. I spent the next few months reconnecting with family, friends, and adjusting to being home again. In May, my marriage took a big hit and it seemed to be finished. … Continue reading My 2011 Starts Friday
Adrift
Went back to work today. It was mostly good to get my mind on something else for a little bit. I had several people come up to me throughout the day and offer their support. It means the world to me. I just wish I knew what I needed.I felt like a ghost, haunting my … Continue reading Adrift
Grocery
I awoke at the crack of 8 AM today to drive out to the Reasor's Foods store just north of Owasso. I'm not used to getting up early anymore, and it took some doing. Factor in that my apartment was roughly 57 degrees and you have an unhappy camper.The day I found out about my … Continue reading Grocery
Pieces
My life this past week has been a strange mix of tremendous sadness, fond reflection, and detached organization. This post is a bit scatterbrained, but so am I.As I mentioned before, I've been working at getting things straightened out for the services and getting the legal part of his estate settled. We settled on having … Continue reading Pieces


