April 7th, 1981. The Soviet Union was the big scare in the newspapers. Ronald Reagan was still in the hospital from his assassination attempt. "Rapture" by Blondie was #1 on the radio. The Tulsa World spoke about a new downtown renovation project for the Brady district. At 11:45 AM, I was born. I was only … Continue reading Thirty Years
Tomorrow is April. It's my 30th birthday month. I'm not overly concerned with thirty years; just another year, really. I am happy at my job. I love my family. I have many wonderful friends. I love the house I live in. So much has gone my way in the last year, though as anyone is … Continue reading Debt
I've gone to two grief counselor sessions and I think I'm done.I got out of them what I wanted. I talked about Dad, I talked about my marriage, and was told I'm healing, moving along at a good pace and that I'm reacting normally. I'll have good days and bad days, but otherwise I check … Continue reading Baby Steps
"Nice car!"I have lost count of the amount of times someone on the street has looked at Dad's Mustang and make some kind of positive remark about it. It's six years old but it still turns heads. I always respond with a thank you and often tag a, "It was my father's" which gets no … Continue reading Possession
Time is funny.As I've mentioned before, there are moments when it feels like Dad's been gone a really long time and there are moments where I feel like I just got the phone call. It's changed a bit. Instead of fluctuating to where I feel like I just got the news, it's more of a … Continue reading Restart
I had a conversation today about returning to the dating scene. I've been on the fence about the subject. On one hand, Indi and I have been separated since early November. That's four months. It feels like mourning a relationship that I had for seven years should work differently. I remind myself that, in my … Continue reading Acquainted
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Malaise: noun - a vague or unfocused feeling of mental uneasiness, lethargy, or discomfort.You know, I'm starting to wonder if this cold and cloudy weather has something to do with my mood. I've never been one of those 'aw, shucks' kind of cloudy day guy; in fact, I love rain and thunderstorms. But I'm so … Continue reading Malaise
As I sat in my living room this morning, listening to old Creedence Clearwater Revival records, drinking coffee, and awaiting the cable company to come hook up my internet, I smiled in the contentedness of the moment. It was early. The coffee was good. The music drifted through the air, having been trapped in a … Continue reading Settling
I was in the middle of a conversation with a good friend last night when I came to a realization. Over the last few months, there have been several emotionally traumatic events in my life: the failure of my marriage, the death of my grandmother, and the death of my father. I've had this nagging … Continue reading Contradiction
Rhys' Pieces 