Today

Can't sleep.In about nine hours, I drive out of town and to the town where my father was raised. He helped at his father's grocery store. He graduated high school. He raced cars at the Pawhuska Municipal Airport. He moved back to care for his ailing mother. Tomorrow, he completes his journey and we all … Continue reading Today →

My 2011 Starts Friday

2010 was a hell of a year. In February, I returned home from my travels abroad as a better refined and defined version of myself. I spent the next few months reconnecting with family, friends, and adjusting to being home again. In May, my marriage took a big hit and it seemed to be finished. … Continue reading My 2011 Starts Friday →

Adrift

Went back to work today. It was mostly good to get my mind on something else for a little bit. I had several people come up to me throughout the day and offer their support. It means the world to me. I just wish I knew what I needed.I felt like a ghost, haunting my … Continue reading Adrift →

Grocery

I awoke at the crack of 8 AM today to drive out to the Reasor's Foods store just north of Owasso. I'm not used to getting up early anymore, and it took some doing. Factor in that my apartment was roughly 57 degrees and you have an unhappy camper.The day I found out about my … Continue reading Grocery →

Pieces

My life this past week has been a strange mix of tremendous sadness, fond reflection, and detached organization. This post is a bit scatterbrained, but so am I.As I mentioned before, I've been working at getting things straightened out for the services and getting the legal part of his estate settled. We settled on having … Continue reading Pieces →

Missing

I woke up this morning hoping the last twenty hours weren't true. I hoped that I'd be able to turn over, grab my cell phone, and call my Dad. I could hear his, "Yellow?" as he answered his phone. I'd sit and listen about his day, hear the same two or three stories I heard … Continue reading Missing →

Rain, rain, go away…

Looks like sunshine today, and let me tell you: it's about time!My three days in Baja were fantastic, don't get me wrong. Doug is a kind and generous host and introduced me to a lot of his friends; it just rained nearly the whole time. But that's okay; there's always something cool to do in … Continue reading Rain, rain, go away… →

Attending the Tulsa State Fair

There were various times when I was traveling that I'd come across some small festival, carnival, or other gathering and think back fondly to the State Fair here at home. It normally wasn't a long thought, just a short "hey that was fun" kind of memory and I'd move on. As October creeped up on … Continue reading Attending the Tulsa State Fair →

Having to Work at It

Yesterday was a big day for me. It was the day I decided to work at undoing the damage I've done to myself in the last five months.In the dozen countries I traveled to, every day was an adventure. I walked to new places every day and experienced the world on my own two feet. … Continue reading Having to Work at It →

Rage

Throughout the majority of my adult life, I've been known for my patience and easy-going demeanor. I smile easily and often and am always happy to talk to my friends. I listen when people have problems and offer advice if it is needed. I have noticed in the last few months that I am having … Continue reading Rage →